It's only 4pm, but the sky is turning dark soon. Long nights are pretty saddenning sometimes. So I'm sitting in front of my computer, feeling restless and fidgety because I have to go for practice in about 15mins time but yet I have a reading in OLD JAPANESE I've to complete by say, tonight. I hate being sandwiched between. It's like, you gotta go or you gotta do it. But I don't want to do both. So I'm blogging.
Still thinking of home every single day. But I'm not dwelling so much anymore. Just want to get through every day until next year's Feb/March when I'll get a temporal reprieve from feeling lonely being overseas. Can't wait, really :D And Landis' coming in 3 months time! He's far from me, but having another friend in Tokyo will do some good.
I wanna stay in that world where it's okay to be weak. No more brave fronts, no more pretending, no more feeling stifled. So many of what this world preaches are making us feel worse. Who says we can't cry when we're feeling sad? Who says we have to hate those who hurt us - in the end, who's the one who ends up huffy with anger and rage while the other one goes away whistling happily? Who says weakness is a curse? I learnt that weakness is a trait. Just because the world says so, doesn't mean that it's right, you know.
Lie on my back and watch the clouds float past me;
And wish that just like them,
My troubles would too.
PS: I'm not emo-ing! Just in a very whateveryouwannacallit mood, that's all. (:
Still thinking of home every single day. But I'm not dwelling so much anymore. Just want to get through every day until next year's Feb/March when I'll get a temporal reprieve from feeling lonely being overseas. Can't wait, really :D And Landis' coming in 3 months time! He's far from me, but having another friend in Tokyo will do some good.
I wanna stay in that world where it's okay to be weak. No more brave fronts, no more pretending, no more feeling stifled. So many of what this world preaches are making us feel worse. Who says we can't cry when we're feeling sad? Who says we have to hate those who hurt us - in the end, who's the one who ends up huffy with anger and rage while the other one goes away whistling happily? Who says weakness is a curse? I learnt that weakness is a trait. Just because the world says so, doesn't mean that it's right, you know.
Lie on my back and watch the clouds float past me;
And wish that just like them,
My troubles would too.
PS: I'm not emo-ing! Just in a very whateveryouwannacallit mood, that's all. (:
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i wish there could be a like button for this post; specifically the 2nd half of it..
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