Monday, May 28, 2012

Counting my blessings.

I have lots of food pictures to upload but will do that another time. It's 12.25am now. Just came back from a gathering with some Singies. Finally got an excuse to try out bread pudding and I must say it turned out quite well, if I do say so myself. Well, at least I liked it haha. One dissatisfaction was that it was soggy by the time we ate it. And like true-blue Singies, when they said the gathering starts at 6pm, it means that preparations are to start at 6pm, not that food will be served at 6pm.

Haven't been sleeping well lately. Don't know what's wrong but hopefully I'll be able to sleep like a baby tonight after today. I am exhausted, Mind&Body! Please let me sleep tonight.

Other than that, my mood has considerably improved. Not that my circumstances have changed, but I'd say it's probably an effort on my part to view things in perspective. When we are put in a certain painful/hard circumstance, asking to be taken out of it is an option - but is it a solution? Being taken out of it just entails a transfer to another. The cycle is endless. So what matters most is not that we change our circumstance, but that we be changed (read: mindset). I heard from somewhere some time back that our cross is just the right weight for us. Other people's crosses might seem lighter, but if you were to switch with them, you'd probably see that your cross is still the best for you. So I'm trying not to envy others and deal with my own cross. Because God doesn't give us more than what we can handle.

And thank God for friends, really. When I was having a tough week, I'm grateful for Grace & BBF who listened to my rants/whines, for giving me wise counsel when I was being irrational & being too caught up in the moment. Best Friend, for the long emails and reassuring words. Thank you for remembering every word that I've ever said to you! (Even I don't remember some of the stuff I've told you but YOU did, and that's so sweet (:) Eric, for always tolerating my whining and complaints (haha most of the time you didn't have a choice, I know :P). And a friend whom I haven't spoken to for years suddenly dropped me a message, asking if she could pray for me. These people are really blessings God has sent my way.

New week, new challenges.
Oh Lord, please give me the strength I need to face this week.

One more week!

Monday, May 14, 2012

Smile, because of the sadness

All choked up,
yet not nearly tearing up.
Hands thrown up,
yet not nearly giving up.

Today, there was a roller-coaster inside me. But, the tears that welled up were transformed into thanksgiving. I will not allow the sadness to triumph, because I have Someone in me who is bigger than all things. The thing I fear most: He knows.

My 'Isaac', I offer up in prayer.


一 宿 雖 然 有 哭 泣 、 早 晨 便 必 歡 呼 。


See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, ...but seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. (Matthew 6:28-34)