Who am I to judge? That was the question my Self posed to me yesterday, ever so randomly. The sins of those I judge are the very sins of mine too, are they not? Am I judging in love or am I judging in spite? Love is always the issue at the bottom line.
I get scared when I think about those mortal beings who I rely on so heavily for my moods. The fact is that people always let down and always get let down. Why am I pinning all my hopes on them, those unsteady pieces of pebbles in my path? Why can't I remember to shift my gaze on the Rock that is standing unwaveringly at the end of the road instead? I'm not a social creature. I've never been good with people. And I felt that acutely recently, feeling utterly alone amidst the hustle and bustle. Scanning familiar faces with a blank mind.
What do I need to do to serve people? No, the question is how. Lord, teach me how I should serve the very people of whom I'm so afraid.
I haven't met you yet but I'm scared of you...
And holidays are coming to an official end soon. After a luxurious 5 months of break, I think it's about time I did something constructive with that degree worth 5 years of my life, if nothing more. It's going to be school all over again but this is gonna hurt.. because it's a lesson in the School of Life. Nothing more humbling than that.
Teach me how to serve,
Teach me how to love.
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