As the bell to leave tolls nearby, I have this ridiculous sinking sensation, and anxiety floods over me like a tsunami. It never fails to occur every single departure. Never. But I guess it's time to pack up my feelings and my luggage and bid another goodbye. At this point, my feeling is indescribable. And anyway, I don't want to dwell too much on how I'm feeling inside lest it makes it too difficult to leave.
While sending XJ off at the airport yesterday, it hit me as to how familiar the airport has become. It always used to be a place where excitement unfolds with the clutched worn-out itinerary in hand, dreaming of places yet seen, yet experienced. I remember the airport used to be my favourite place and I'd love watching people entering the departure halls, trying to put myself in their shoes, thinking of the exotic places they were heading too. And I'd envy them.
Now? Everytime I think of the airport, I'm reminded of the all-too familiar sinking sensation and sadness. It's like how you're reminded of kaya and butter toast when you think of Ya-Kun. I hope that the next few times I've to leave again, I'll be able to overcome the dread and find something to look forward to going back to FarLaLand.
But it's been a milestone. God has brought me through 1half years in that foreign land. And He'll bring me through the next 3half. And I'm really happy to be able to be home for 1half months this time :D so super thankful! Its been so awesome. Love being with Familiarity. It's always hard to leave all that I love, but I'll manage with Your grace and strength. Amen.
While sending XJ off at the airport yesterday, it hit me as to how familiar the airport has become. It always used to be a place where excitement unfolds with the clutched worn-out itinerary in hand, dreaming of places yet seen, yet experienced. I remember the airport used to be my favourite place and I'd love watching people entering the departure halls, trying to put myself in their shoes, thinking of the exotic places they were heading too. And I'd envy them.
Now? Everytime I think of the airport, I'm reminded of the all-too familiar sinking sensation and sadness. It's like how you're reminded of kaya and butter toast when you think of Ya-Kun. I hope that the next few times I've to leave again, I'll be able to overcome the dread and find something to look forward to going back to FarLaLand.
But it's been a milestone. God has brought me through 1half years in that foreign land. And He'll bring me through the next 3half. And I'm really happy to be able to be home for 1half months this time :D so super thankful! Its been so awesome. Love being with Familiarity. It's always hard to leave all that I love, but I'll manage with Your grace and strength. Amen.
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