Which is worse?

Going for lessons with your heart anywhere but there.

OR

Not going for lessons but reflecting on what you have done, and promising yourself to work harder on your attitude next time.

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I don't know how I can be so nonchalant in my previous entry about how I'm not in the mood to study anymore. Because that's cause for alarm. My job right now, is to be a student. If I can't do my current job right, what makes me think I can do a good job on my future one? But recently I've had a slight panic attack about the future. Yesyes, my future is in moulding the future generation's future, but that's precisely it. If I'm still such a kid at heart, skipping classes when I feel (or don't feel) like it, am I qualified to be a teacher? And my Jap is starting to go down the slippery slope. I can just feel it being washed away from me. I don't feel qualified to be teaching those kids when I myself am as much of a stranger to the language as them.

I need to get right with my attitude again. And apologise to Daddy God for being such a brat. Next week, no more ponning, no more slacking off with work. The short-term goal I'll be running towards to is the winter break.

Laziness is a disease.

But it's curable.

Fight the Good Fight; Run the Good Race!