This makes me nervous, knowing that I am searched and known thoroughly inside out by Him ^^; How did He know I was complaining about where I am right now? How did He know I was yearning for just a soft whisper of assurance? That's because He's God. My Lord and creator nonetheless.
Although He has yet to show me exactly in His terms, but that sentence from Him sets a whole new perspective for me. Reading this book for the second time again and I never fail to be inspired and refreshed.
"God conceals much that we do not need to know, yet we do know that He calls His own sheep by name and leads them out... Does the Shepherd overlook anything that the sheep need?"
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On another note, the fact that I still dream about her so often makes me realize that I don't deal well with death. That permanence - it's too surreal. When I wake up, I need a minute or two to differentiate reality from dream-scape. I never thought much of death before. But the fact is that death can come knocking on our doors anytime. Sometimes I wonder if I'll be missed when I'm gone. Or am I just an existence that can be replaced with the passing of time? What will be said at my funeral? Who will have fond memories of me that they can share? I wonder many things, and I'm unsure of many things. But one thing I'm sure is that I don't want any tears at my funeral. Because death, to the Christian, is the start of a new life with Christ; it's not the end. So a funeral should be a celebration of a life lived, and for the eternal life to come... one that promises no tears, no sadness and no more separation. In honesty, I'd rather be living that life. But if God hasn't taken me, it means my job on this earth is not done. So I will be happy where I am at. Because He holds my future; nothing is not part of His plan.
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