Back to where I'm supposed to be.
Really glad I chose to go back home during spring break because I had a fulfilling and really busy month back home, albeit saddening as well. If you didn't know (which highly means you're not really supposed to be reading this blog haha), my grandma passed away on 1 April 2012. The first thing people ask me is, "Were you close to her?" This question always throws me off. Why? Because as much as I was close to her, I could and should have done more for her when she was still alive. The question only reminded me of the regrets I have towards her. The best thing I ever did for her (not my credit, per se) was to ask her if she wanted to get baptized. And in God's perfect timing, she was baptized just two days before she passed away. Any later, she might not be conscious enough to acknowledge it. Perfect timing. So although I have so much regrets, I know that now she's in a happier place for eternity and it's really comforting. Almost a month has passed since her death, but I still miss her. Thinking that I can no longer call her, or have her fuss over me makes everything feels so surreal. She is the first person I love who has passed on from this world, which explains why this has so impacted so deeply. And when I think that we're already at an age where we'll have to say more goodbyes to loved ones, it stirs up a sense of urgency in me to share the Good News to them before it's too late. Because I don't ever want to say 'Goodbye' to any of them- I want to tell them 'See you later', knowing that we'll meet again. I'm not grieving for my grandma's death, because she has lived to a ripe 83yo and got to see many things that other grandparents might not have and most importantly, she has departed from this world of suffering and pain. In fact, I envy her. I cry because I miss her physical presence.
Caught hunger games right before I came back! Finally fulfilled my resolution (no, it's not to watch hunger games haha). Should start working on my other resolutions! And it's still cold over here =/ missing Singapore's weather already haha. Not doing anything much these days, just trying to adapt back to life here and waiting for my results (yes, it's STILL not out) and the new sem to start. Fightfightfight!
Will leave you with one last picture:
My 2nd attempt at bread-making in Singapore!
This loaf has to be the prettiest by far! :D
Really glad I chose to go back home during spring break because I had a fulfilling and really busy month back home, albeit saddening as well. If you didn't know (which highly means you're not really supposed to be reading this blog haha), my grandma passed away on 1 April 2012. The first thing people ask me is, "Were you close to her?" This question always throws me off. Why? Because as much as I was close to her, I could and should have done more for her when she was still alive. The question only reminded me of the regrets I have towards her. The best thing I ever did for her (not my credit, per se) was to ask her if she wanted to get baptized. And in God's perfect timing, she was baptized just two days before she passed away. Any later, she might not be conscious enough to acknowledge it. Perfect timing. So although I have so much regrets, I know that now she's in a happier place for eternity and it's really comforting. Almost a month has passed since her death, but I still miss her. Thinking that I can no longer call her, or have her fuss over me makes everything feels so surreal. She is the first person I love who has passed on from this world, which explains why this has so impacted so deeply. And when I think that we're already at an age where we'll have to say more goodbyes to loved ones, it stirs up a sense of urgency in me to share the Good News to them before it's too late. Because I don't ever want to say 'Goodbye' to any of them- I want to tell them 'See you later', knowing that we'll meet again. I'm not grieving for my grandma's death, because she has lived to a ripe 83yo and got to see many things that other grandparents might not have and most importantly, she has departed from this world of suffering and pain. In fact, I envy her. I cry because I miss her physical presence.
Caught hunger games right before I came back! Finally fulfilled my resolution (no, it's not to watch hunger games haha). Should start working on my other resolutions! And it's still cold over here =/ missing Singapore's weather already haha. Not doing anything much these days, just trying to adapt back to life here and waiting for my results (yes, it's STILL not out) and the new sem to start. Fightfightfight!
Will leave you with one last picture:
My 2nd attempt at bread-making in Singapore!
This loaf has to be the prettiest by far! :D
3 comments:
that bread is so pretty. is it matcha? it looks better than bread talk's!
yup its matcha swirl :)
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