I don't know who even reads my blog nowadays, haha. It's so overly neglected that I'd be surprised if I've any readers left at all!
The day I left for Japan seemed like just yesterday, when the fact is that it was actually yester-yesteryear. 2 and a half years have really gone by. All it did was to ruffle my hair with its speed, but I'm still standing at the same spot. I know I ought to take a step out, but I don't know how. Lord, teach me. Teach me to live it out. I'm doing this for You. This has been my prayer and it will remain to be.
COS is expanding at such a rapid rate that I'm just amazed by how much it has grown since our dear president stepped down some 2 years ago. From 3, we've now expanded to a strong 8! That's like a 175% increase! [I made that up. I have no idea how to calculate % increases :p] Looking at the 2 to-be-members makes me feel like I've come a long way. DJ voiced out his insecurities and how unwilling he is to put down everything he has here. When I heard that, I thought to myself that that sounded so familiar. Yes, that was exactly what I said when I had to leave. I heard myself telling him that it's only for 3 years, and that he would grow so much through this experience. I could have laughed if I were present as a 3rd party. The ironic phrase "Suffer to bless". I truly know what it means now. In so many ways, I thank God for the things he's put me through overseas. It's still not easy going back each time, but it just makes me appreciate everything even more. But, it's really too early for me to get sappy over this; I'm only half way through! Haha.
Attachment has been a wild experience. Too little, too much. All I have to say is: thank God I'm not graduating any time soon yet. He's really humorous. All my complaints about 5 years being too long went unheard for a reason. Thank You, Daddy God. You really know best. Amen (:
And thank You for Sem 3 results. For watching over me through the nights of insomnia, the frustration while studying and the overwhelming homesickness. You really don't put your kid through suffering for nothing. I honestly couldn't have done it without You. Help me to shine like stars and be the light & salt of this world.
The day I left for Japan seemed like just yesterday, when the fact is that it was actually yester-yesteryear. 2 and a half years have really gone by. All it did was to ruffle my hair with its speed, but I'm still standing at the same spot. I know I ought to take a step out, but I don't know how. Lord, teach me. Teach me to live it out. I'm doing this for You. This has been my prayer and it will remain to be.
COS is expanding at such a rapid rate that I'm just amazed by how much it has grown since our dear president stepped down some 2 years ago. From 3, we've now expanded to a strong 8! That's like a 175% increase! [I made that up. I have no idea how to calculate % increases :p] Looking at the 2 to-be-members makes me feel like I've come a long way. DJ voiced out his insecurities and how unwilling he is to put down everything he has here. When I heard that, I thought to myself that that sounded so familiar. Yes, that was exactly what I said when I had to leave. I heard myself telling him that it's only for 3 years, and that he would grow so much through this experience. I could have laughed if I were present as a 3rd party. The ironic phrase "Suffer to bless". I truly know what it means now. In so many ways, I thank God for the things he's put me through overseas. It's still not easy going back each time, but it just makes me appreciate everything even more. But, it's really too early for me to get sappy over this; I'm only half way through! Haha.
Attachment has been a wild experience. Too little, too much. All I have to say is: thank God I'm not graduating any time soon yet. He's really humorous. All my complaints about 5 years being too long went unheard for a reason. Thank You, Daddy God. You really know best. Amen (:
And thank You for Sem 3 results. For watching over me through the nights of insomnia, the frustration while studying and the overwhelming homesickness. You really don't put your kid through suffering for nothing. I honestly couldn't have done it without You. Help me to shine like stars and be the light & salt of this world.
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