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EXAAAAAAAMS.

I felt really close to my breaking point yesterday, after a sleepless night and just looking at the amount of things I have to memorise. Really want to puke blood. I've been reading the same thing over and over for the past 2 days but the words are not sticking in my mind. Yes Grace, I'm working with words but those are jargons that might as well be alien words to me! Oh God, please bring me through this exam period. I don't remember being this stressed out the past 2 semesters. It's a really big test of patience and faith. But the good news is that it WILL be over. I have that promise to look forward to!

I can choose to be bitter about alot of things, but I'm choosing the other way out. There's no point in making myself upset over things like exams. So I choose to thank God for the perfect studying weather the past 2 days (thanks to the rumoured typhoon, the past 2 days have stayed at a constant temperature of mid-20. really thankful because before that the weather was at an average of 33degrees and above and was literally painful), thank God for the support I've gotten from people around me, thank God for giving me about a week or so to study for my heavy-content papers (it beats having like, 2 days), and thank God for His Promise that He'll never forsake me! "When something gets you down, look up to Jesus" :D

So I've mentioned a couple of times about my insomnia. Yesterday night was really bad. I was exhausted from everything, mentally and physically, but my body wouldn't give me a break. On Tuesday I'd purchased a drink to sleep better because I've been having insomnia for quite a long time. I was planning to drink it on Wednesday night (Tuesday night was really a SLEEPLESS NIGHT. I only went to bed at 6am, which isn't even night at all) but somehow I managed to fall asleep on Wednesday night so I didn't drink. But yesterday night, I did. The effect was so scary, I tell you. It makes you even drowsier than the normal drowsy medicine. After about 30mins when the effect kicked in, I was still awake but I could feel the drowsiness. That was a really bad feeling. I felt so sick. And somehow I drifted to sleep. The next morning when I woke up I still felt really drowsy and lethargic. And I've been feeling abit sick for the whole day, abit like when you get a slight fever. No way am I gonna try any sleeping products again. Maybe melatonin, but nothing else. I felt so much better when I was having insomnia, ironically.

I still can't believe my mom asked me to count sheep lol. And the more I can't believe that I actually tried it. Hahaha but it didn't work for me la. I kept picturing Mr Bean counting sheep and him dropping off to sleep in an instant in his dramatic way.

Sigh. Hopefully tonight would be more promising.