Morning Reflections.

Horrible morning. Didn't even sleep a wink. Tossed and turned for 6hours+ when I surrendered and gave up trying to sleep. It's even more tiring to lie in bed willing yourself to sleep than being up doing other random things. I kid you not. It's not even funny when I'm mentally exhausted but my mind doesn't want to shut down. There are times when I wished my powerhouse would work doubly hard, but sleeping time is obviously not the time. Sigh. Will need every drop of energy from Above to get me through the day.

But still, thank God it's Sunday! :D A day closer to home! FREE Malaysian buffet later :D :D And just had awesome dimsum yesterday (well, it still feels like today actually because of you-know-why %$@!#^!&). Learnt some Spanish from Rafael. I'm starting to think Spanish is fun, because it's pretty similar to English and I got complimented for my pronunciation! Not that I sound native, but he said the way I pronounced Spanish is cute from a Spanish-speaking person's POV wahahaha. Anyhow say also can sound cute, you say easy or not :D But I'm still deliberating between Korean and Spanish. How how how?!

Mmmm first time in a loong while that I've been up so early. Unfortunately, the sunrise in Japan is super early so I still didn't get to see it. And age must be catching up on me, I'm starting to reminisce alot. Plus the fact that I take awfully (too) long to adapt to new environments is making me sad. Like I'm not living in every moment and appreciating everything that I have around me right now. I know so many of you have heard me complaining about Japan and how I wished I could go home instead. Well, of course during my lows, it's natural to have these kinda thoughts, no? But recently, I'm starting to see the joy of studying in Japan, or overseas for this matter. Having survived this one year in Language School, I'm starting to miss it already. Lessons aside, I think I've met wonderful people who have contributed to my growth, knowledge and thinking. Xiwen once told me that once we start to become familiar with our surroundings, we tend to take things for granted. However, if we are thrown into unfamiliar conditions, we realise how weak we really are and we start to have a true sense of gratitude to what/who we have in our lives. I don't want to ever take the things/people I have for granted, so I'm really thankful that I'm given this opportunity to be thrown into the wilderness and learn survival skills. I might be forced to sleep in the mud, be forced to fear each and every day for what's lurking around, be forced to eat jungle food (sounds like army rations hahahaha), but at the end of the day, it's precisely these things that will make me grow up. I'm fully aware of how sheltered and protected I am in Singapore, so being forced out of my comfort zone will only serve to make me a stronger person with a stronger character. What doesn't break me will only make me stronger (:

Ah, see what I mean by growing old? "The moral of the story" starts to come out.

Sleep deprivation is keeping me hyperactive.

I think it's all the tea that's keeping me awake.