Sorry for the lack of updates!
Ever since the trauma of EJU, I have since decided to forget about it until results day - 12/15. Crying about it will not make my grades any higher. I'll leave that to God. Therefore, I shall now focus on the upcoming DECEMBER and the million things that I have on my to-do list. Seriously, I don't know what will actually make me stick to my lists. I love making lists (I'm anal like that, which explains why I'm a Type A) but the ironic thing is that I do -not- follow them. Then, part of me gets so irritated with the other me that I didn't follow the list that I wrote up. Haha sounds like split personality!
This week had been busy. Busy with what, you ask. I don't know what also! I've been sleeping even later than before EJU. Currently watching BOF hahaha. And the weather has been perfect sleep-in weather. It's dropping to below 10degrees tomorrow onwards ): My nightmare. Fighting very hard to resist the temptation to pon school every now and then. It's really nottttt easy I tell you!
Plus, I really need to go on a diet. The cold is making me hungrier than ever and because of the same cold, it's making me miss my jogs. Too cold to jogggg. Can someone tell me how they manage to jog when it's like 5degrees outside?? Wear scarf and coat to jog ah?
Honestly, I'm starting to see how important it is to stay joyful even when your circumstances are anything but that. I haven't mastered it yet, but I just really hope I can see the light at the end of every tunnel I enter. I'm so tired of being sad. And the more tiring it is for people who hear me all depressed and sad everytime they talk to me.
I've a friend who had 2 friends around the same age pass away within this year. As he was lamenting about the pain and sorrow, I was once again reminded how short our life on this earth is. During service, the pastor said something about another pastor who passed away leaving a legacy behind. I'm not a pastor, but it set me thinking how my eulogy would sound like. I don't want something PC like "She was a nice girl, nice friend and she'll be dearly missed". That, interpreted, sounds like "She was nice enough but she didn't impact anyone's life enough to say anything more". Sadly, I think if I were to die now, my eulogy would probably sound like the PC one. Interpersonal relationships - I've never been good at them. I'm too permissive for my own good, that I don't let my personality shine through. I'm always going with what please everyone, not having a stand, not having any breakthrough ideas. Always the wallflower. Nice almost sounds like a bad word in this world. I'm still trying to sieve out what my strong points are. I don't have any blatant talents. Whatever talent God has given me is still buried inside, I suppose. My goal is to excavate that. Or if anyone would like to tell me what are my good points, please do. And don't give me PC answers. "Wounds from a friend can be trusted, but an enemy multiplies kisses" (Proverbs 27:6)
Yawns it's 12.26am now. Listening to Corrinne May's Christmas album :D
Can't wait for Christmas <3>
Ever since the trauma of EJU, I have since decided to forget about it until results day - 12/15. Crying about it will not make my grades any higher. I'll leave that to God. Therefore, I shall now focus on the upcoming DECEMBER and the million things that I have on my to-do list. Seriously, I don't know what will actually make me stick to my lists. I love making lists (I'm anal like that, which explains why I'm a Type A) but the ironic thing is that I do -not- follow them. Then, part of me gets so irritated with the other me that I didn't follow the list that I wrote up. Haha sounds like split personality!
This week had been busy. Busy with what, you ask. I don't know what also! I've been sleeping even later than before EJU. Currently watching BOF hahaha. And the weather has been perfect sleep-in weather. It's dropping to below 10degrees tomorrow onwards ): My nightmare. Fighting very hard to resist the temptation to pon school every now and then. It's really nottttt easy I tell you!
Plus, I really need to go on a diet. The cold is making me hungrier than ever and because of the same cold, it's making me miss my jogs. Too cold to jogggg. Can someone tell me how they manage to jog when it's like 5degrees outside?? Wear scarf and coat to jog ah?
Honestly, I'm starting to see how important it is to stay joyful even when your circumstances are anything but that. I haven't mastered it yet, but I just really hope I can see the light at the end of every tunnel I enter. I'm so tired of being sad. And the more tiring it is for people who hear me all depressed and sad everytime they talk to me.
I've a friend who had 2 friends around the same age pass away within this year. As he was lamenting about the pain and sorrow, I was once again reminded how short our life on this earth is. During service, the pastor said something about another pastor who passed away leaving a legacy behind. I'm not a pastor, but it set me thinking how my eulogy would sound like. I don't want something PC like "She was a nice girl, nice friend and she'll be dearly missed". That, interpreted, sounds like "She was nice enough but she didn't impact anyone's life enough to say anything more". Sadly, I think if I were to die now, my eulogy would probably sound like the PC one. Interpersonal relationships - I've never been good at them. I'm too permissive for my own good, that I don't let my personality shine through. I'm always going with what please everyone, not having a stand, not having any breakthrough ideas. Always the wallflower. Nice almost sounds like a bad word in this world. I'm still trying to sieve out what my strong points are. I don't have any blatant talents. Whatever talent God has given me is still buried inside, I suppose. My goal is to excavate that. Or if anyone would like to tell me what are my good points, please do. And don't give me PC answers. "Wounds from a friend can be trusted, but an enemy multiplies kisses" (Proverbs 27:6)
Yawns it's 12.26am now. Listening to Corrinne May's Christmas album :D
Can't wait for Christmas <3>
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