Letting go.

Got around to thinking alot the past few days.

Someone asked me to try identifying the main reason for my homesickness.

I couldn't.

Then, he said,

Sometimes you get more sand left in your hands if you don't hold on to them too tightly.

..

Maybe I expect too much from people back home.

On days when I have noone to cry to, noone to complain to,

I must remember that

In the first place

I might not have been there for them even more times when they weren't there for me.

I need more "others" time than "me" time.

To stop wallowing

And to focus on the others hurting.

But

Am I really holding on too tightly?

I can't expect people to be there 24/7 for me.

They have their own lives to live.

..

Don't be selfish, Charmine.

Learn to let go.

And maybe I'll retain more.

..

There,

I'll give you more of your life back.

I hope you're happier.

♥, char