Life Musing.

I am finally not living in Surrealville anymore. The fact that I have to become independent in this foreign land finally took form in my mind today. Had to pay so many bills and fees recently that I finally got a taste of what it means to be on your own. Can't imagine starting a family next time with tons and tons of fees and bills to pay. It's rather scary how money can stress you up from time to time but the important thing that I've been reminding myself is that money is not everything, that there are so many more important things than money in this world (Esp things that money can't buy - like HEALTH. Who says money is superior to all?). Better not get caught up in this paper-chase (yes, money is just paper y'know).

Had to pay my dorm fees yesterday and the stupidest thing happened. I wanted to do transferring of money to the school's account and I realised I forgot my pin number for my bank card. So silly me just (un)happily tried the possible numbers I could think of, forgetting that I could only try 2 times.... before the card gets locked and thus rendered a useless piece of plastic that the bankteller would later go on to cut up as if it didn't used to be the key to the many papers stored in his bank. Sooooo I had to rush down during lunch time to the bank. But it turned out to be rather fun, doing such adult-ish things myself LOL. Great way to delusionise yourself into thinking you're really growing up.

Oh apparently, MJ's death finally has a verdict. Overdose. The entertainment world is really not a place to thrive in, seriously. So many celebrities have had their Great Falls, (no) thanks to the Media, otherwise-coined Paparazzi. And I had the biggest shock and disappointment yesterday. I don't know if anyone actually watches Channel 70 Discovery Family and Health on cable. But I'm a great fan of it. I can watch that channel for the whole day if you asked me to. (Heh, family person what, me) And so, I highly doubt anyone would find the show "Jon & Kate Plus 8" vaguely familiar? Basically it's this reality tv show that shows the daily lives of a couple with 8 kids - a pair of twins and sextuplets, no less! I was sooo amused by it when I first watched it. The kids are way adorable! Yes yes, anyway. I heard that the couple is headed for a divorce.. like WHAT THE HECK! I always thought their family was this close-knitted, loving family. And the cause of the divorce is rumoured to be infidelity. ...How can any parent even have the energy and time to find another man/woman when they have 8 kids waiting for them back home? Sigh, I just feel so sad for the kids. They are still so young and I'm sure they hardly know what's going on. ): I'm not sure if it's actually fair to blame the media for this since they have been twisting the facts and exaggerating things (as usual), making things more hyped up than they really are.

Sometimes I really wonder if people didn't go into the entertainment circle, would they be living a happier life? Fame is 可望不可求 indeed. But I think I'd rather not 望 for it either. What God gives, He gives. What God takes, He takes. We just have to be thankful for our own lives and plights (: Just remember that 一山还有一山高; when you think you're the least fortunate in this world, please look around again and stop throwing yourself a pity party. That way you'll be alot happier (: [HEH, sorry for the 俗语 (林老师, are those俗语ah?) overload!]

This is them. Tell me they're awfully adorable? (:

♥, char

Fluffs.

Feeling relatively happier today as compared to the past few days of pit-bottoms. So thought I better blog now before something ominous takes over this current light-fluffy mood of mine (:

Had a sudden visit from my host's mum and sister today, so we went Harajuku. Bought this sweet that was ramen-flavoured. It's the most rancid sweet I've ever eaten, seriously. And, I should stop wearing heels when I know I'm going to walk so much la. I wonder how the Jap girls can survive wearing heels every single day. If only there was something beneficial in wearing heels - other than making one look taller.

And I bought a fan!! FINALLY. You have no idea how freaking hot it's getting to be. It's honestly like Singapore's weather now! Sometimes I wake up thinking I'm back in Singapore to find that I'm still here. Makes me sad all over again ): Yeah but whatever it is, glad I can now sleep with a peace of mind. Yesterday I couldn't get to sleep because of the heat. My room is SO stuffy you have no idea!

Too much to study, too little time.

Sigh.

Have a blessed weekend, all.

God loves you (:

♥, char

Linger in remembrance.

I'm bordering dangerously on binge-eating!

Vexed.

I hate school lah. It's so stressful and I hate the feeling of lagging behind.

As I'm typing, I'm almost finishing up my biscuits. Like one whole box!!

ANYWAY, here are the Tokyo Tower pictures. More on facebook!


This is how it looks like in the day. So unspectacular right? Like some red & white antennae thingy.


Baskins&Robbins! 3 huge scoops for 400yen only! what a steal! :D


Next to the tallest man in the WORLD, according to the Guiness World Record. (I know I look tiny next to him, but he's the tallest man afterall!)

We saw a world's shortest woman too but Eric didn't let me take a photo of it because he thought it was mean to laugh at people's misfortune. See, people, don't laugh at people's heights okay!


4D wall-drawings.

Then, we went up the tower to 150m above ground!


Us lying/standing on "mid-air", or what they'd like people to think.

Not for the weak-hearted and acrophobics!

View from the tower! The light up of Tokyo is really prettyyyyy! :D


Gorgeous (:

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It's reached 32degrees in Tokyo! This is a huge indication that summer is coming it feels so much like Singapore!! But I think Singapore's more humid though. It's drier here. But at the end of the day I still feel sticky.

Ups and downs. Uppity-Up, Downwardy-Down.

My mood's just like a Seesaw. Heehaw. Peepaw.

Peepaw? Hahahaha that reminds me of my dog when he pees and steps on it, so he gets a peepaw.

Totally random.

I almost blew my top towards the end of class. Just couldn't understand the stupid comprehension while everyone was finishing up and leaving. You don't know how extreme I can get when I'm frustrated.

I remember the time in primary school when I was HOPELESS at math. Honestly. My mom will sit me down every night to teach me math and I'll be fidgeting and not paying attention to her. When she made me do sums that I couldn't understand, I would tear up the paper, crush it into balls, throw it around, scream and shout and cry.

Once it got so bad that I dashed into the toilet and squeezed a whole tube of colgate into the toilet bowl. Hahaha I really don't know why I did that. Stress-relief, I think.

My mom also locked me out of the house before, flinging out my school bag and books. Initially, I'd make such a fuss banging on the door, screaming and crying for my mom to open up till my neighbours would all come out to see what's the commotion. Then when I got used to it, I just merely stood outside and waited for my dad to come home. Or for my brother to open the door for me. He used to plead on my behalf to my mom! So sweet, right? (:

But the end of the straw was when my mom couldn't take my nonsense anymore that she threatened to call the Girls' Home to take me away because she said she couldn't control me any longer. She even dialled the number okay! But before anything could happen, I snatched the phone away. I was so afraid at that time.

The next few days when I was waiting for my mom to pick me up from school, I kept looking out for a Girls' Home van because I was so convinced that they would come get me.

Hahahaha, stupid, right?

Welcome to Charmine's extreme moods (:

I've relatively toned down with age, but I got to say that this kinda thing you can never fully get it off your back. God toned me down alot, I think. Or I'd probably be this rebellious, short-tempered girl. I'm still learning how to fully tone down, but I guess that'll still take some time.

Hurhur, I no longer get violent when I'm angry at least, thank God. (: and I no longer waste things. I've had the temptations to break plates and just break whatever violatiles, but funnily, the thought of wasting them and wasting money always flashes across my mind before I can do it. The stinginess in me is probably a blessing in cases like that! Wahahaha :D

Hmm I kinda miss my childhood. I was such a character when I was younger.

...Still feeling restless, buttttt shall try to get some work done.

♥, char

Icing on the cake.

Tokyo Tower.
Prettiness in the shadow of the night.
The light that shines in my heart,
A monument in my days.

Went there today with Eric and I really enjoyed myself. The place feels so different from where I'm living now. The air is cooler, fresher, more taller buildings and not as dense and suffocating. I would really love to stay there. Hmm.

Anyway, that's not a picture taken by me. Stupid me forgot to bring my camera so all the photos are with Eric! Gotta wait before you behold the beauty of Tokyo Tower (: I don't know why but I can't get over that place. In the past, whenever I went around Tokyo exploring with friends, I always felt like I was so far away from home and my homesickness would worsen and I'll come back feeling worse than ever. But this time, although I felt far from home, it felt so good to be there. I don't know what's different. Maybe the company X)

Oh oh! This is the medal Eric and I bought over at Tokyo Tower as a souvenir. So cute right! Haha Mel, I bet you love it! :D


Front (Reads: Hello Kitty at Tokyo Tower)

Back (Reads: 2009.06.19 Char and Eric in Tokyo)

You get to print your own whatever at the back of the medal! So fun la (:

Aaaaand, I'm getting fat! Sigh. Need to go on a diet soon. I overate today, I think. Macs for dinner and Baskin&Robbins icecream (triple scoop!!!!) for dessert. Satisfying but maaaaaan, so sinful! ): Wait till you see the icecream! :D

I can't believe 2 weeks just flew by like that. I should learn to treasure time more. If only every day could be as fun as today.

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I had alot to say just now but it's all out of my head. I'm a little incoherent now, my thoughts are in a mess and everywhere, so I shall bullet-point.

▫ Thank God I'm recovering from flu and especially that it's not H1N1 (I think, since I'm already recovering?)

▫ I had one of the most enjoyable past 2 weeks :D

▫ I'm slowly getting used to the pace of school, although it tires me to no ends nonetheless.

▫ I am SO broke for the month.

▫ Glad that MOE is reimbursing me for TOEFL because of above point.

▫ Heard Minmin is taking up the scholarship to go UK! Addition to COS family! ((:

▫ Thinks to meself that I really need to start getting back into my exercise regime.

▫ Hate the weather nowadays because it alternates between raining and being sunny = all the factors to make one sick.

▫ Observes that almost everyone is falling prey to the flu bug. Whether it is H1N1 is beyond my ability to tell. But if it is, school's out! :O

▫ Feeling sleepy and tired now but still have a million of letters to write.

▫ Don't want the night to end.

▫ Post-TokyoTower-Syndrome.

▫ Sending Eric off tomorrow.. ):

Why are people so judgmental? Don't judge before you get to know the person.

♥, char

Everything Green!

Lunch break now! Eating junk because I didn't cook (which happens most of the time). I'm craving for carbohydrates actually. Rice or cakes! Mmmm maybe I'll go to the cake buffet later. Check the website out! :D

http://www.sweets-paradise.com/

I am so envious of people studying in UK. Because European countries like Germany, France, Spain are like just neighbours to it! It's like how Singapore view JB! And it costs so little to fly over there and visit. VISIT. Like, I visited my neighbour. HMMM. My neigbours are like Taiwan (which I definitely want to go!!), Hong Kong (?), Korea & China? They hardly sound as exotic as Europe ): It's like every traveller's dream to tour Europe la and the UK people have already been there, done that. -Sighs dramatically. Haha don't mind me.

Going Ueno with Eric later! Ueno, the land of cheap food and cheap shopping (:

But meanwhile, 4 more hours of lessons beckons.

♥, char

MIA

Sorry I've been MIA for so long. Busy with school and with Eric. I thank God that I've Eric here to get me through my homesickness because he's the closest thing to home now. So thank God (:

Hmm not much to blog about but just some updates.

1. Got back results for my mock test and I did horribly. Way below expectations. I really need to buck up before it's too late.

2. Still feeling very lethargic recently. Can't find out the reason to that, thus I can't find the solution to that. Very frustrating. I think social activities are sapping me of my energy. I need His strength to get through every single day.

3. Still counting down the days to the day I can go home. I won't give a specific date yet because I'm still unsure and if possible I'd like to give people a surprise when I go back! (learnt from Disong hahahha). But I think all those close to me knows when I plan to go back already. Boo, no fun ):

Oh I thank all for remembering my birthday! (: It was such a joy to open up the packages and read all the letters! :D :D :D Wait till I figure out how to send letters. Ahahaha I know la, so country bumpkin right, me.

I have many pictures of the things I got for my birthday but I'm so lazy to upload them and post it here. Another day, perhaps. (Sorry Deborah!)

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I feel like I'm going crazy soon.

♥, char

Sneezing Panda

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

♥, char

If Only.

Everything is flooding back again.

So overwhelming.

I remember the time when I was in Primary School. It was the first day at school. Children were screaming for their mummies and daddies refusing to let go, refusing to separate from their parents. And there I was, looking around, wondering what the big fuss was about. It's just school, wasn't it? And besides, we all get to go home after lessons.

Well, after a few days or weeks (I can't remember exactly), it was my turn to cry. I don't know what triggered the outburst, but I remember very vividly that I wanted to go home very badly. And I was making such a big fuss over it.

Now that I'm 14 years older than that kid, I only have one thing to say to her: "Child, if only you knew. If only."

But, age doesn't necessarily always bring about maturity in thought and actions, I realised.

Because even now, 14 years on, I can still relate alot to that kid.

But the only difference is that I can't go crying home to mummy after lessons anymore.

♥, char